Dead

Dead. That's my opinion of God. Or at least, he's been sleeping way too long. Otherwise he wouldnt have been so bastardized as to endow me with such idiotic, screwed up, brainless a mother and a sister.

First off, my mom. She wants me to assemble the old bedframe i used for my sister. I refused for the reasons below:
1) The wood has rotted at many places, especially the joints.
2) There are better methods to resolve the problem at hand, which is:
My sis used to sleep on a stack of 2 thick mattresses, which keep slipping over each other.

To me, this can be easily solved by putting one mattress away (storing upright against a wall).

After her initial enthusiasm and all that, she wants me to move 2 large bedboards up. I did. And guess what? Despite all her effort whatever bullshit she was trying to pull, the bedboards could not fit inside the frame. In the end i had to hammer the bedboard in by force.

Later my mom keeps scolding me about not trying hard for school and such (i failed one class in a single semester, while getting an A in another. and a B+ for the third subject). Admitting that in that case, i havnt tried hard enough, I argued that it does not, as she did extrapolate to mean, that i do not try at all in everything. In effect, she is contradicting the fact that i have also contributed to the family, especially by typing and drafting contracts for my dad. "Fine, I could always just delete the entire folder of stuff. I didnt do anything afterall." and my mom replied "So that's all u can do? delete?". I said "Yes, that is all i can do. delete. Permanently."

Then there comes my sister, who is even more unforgivable. She does things that are irreversible, thinks it is ok, and enjoys it. While still actively adding songs to my playlist, i've noticed that my playlist has been wiped out more than 2x in a week. And not surprisingly, i found out that it was my annoying brainless idiotic nitwit stupid imbecile of a sister who thinks with her rear end or just doesnt think at all. Telling her not to double click MP3s but to open them via enqueueing or from winamp's playlist itself, i have failed to stop her from wiping out my playlist. Eating at 10pm, she suddenly asked me if i'd like to listen to some stupid song by eminem. I said ok, whatever, and did not suspect anything. Not until the next song played was something i hadnt listened to in ages, and the song after that was annoying eurobeat.

I asked, "what happened to my playlist?" and the answer was that she double-clicked on that screwed up MP3 of hers. And she couldnt apologize and beg for mercy. Neither did she try to remedy the problem. The only thing she did was open the entire folder of anime themes collection to substitute. And one look told me. I didnt have 400 songs in my playlist before that. Only about 140 songs.

I fumed up. I lost hope. There was probably no hope to begin with. I live in a dark world of demise filled with idiots called family members. How should i continue living? Should i seek early release from this painful life? No answers came from above, so i'm waiting to see if they come from below. J-san, please provide some answers if u please.This is the end, i guess.