Corruption of Innocence [Fade to Noise Mix]
Somehow, just somehow, my blog titles are starting to really feel like the chapter names of Bleach manga chapters, or at least, those by Kubo Taito. That point aside. Somehow my imagination seems really overdone these few days. Today, i tried to put myself in the situation or scenario of the movie "Ima, ai ni yukimasu". And this while i am listening to the song Hana by Orange Range which was used in the movie. Thinking abt the lyrics didnt help. Suddenly felt like soaking in tears.
Recent happenings in my life... well... to think about it, nothing really big or significant did happen. Except maybe for one thing. And maybe its only significant to me and no one else.
This is perhaps no longer a secret among my yumcha kakis... but yeah, a lady, J, whom i kinda feel slightly more interested in before, and whom Mr. B has a crush on, SMSed me on a boring, wednesday morning. At 1:52am no less. To tell me that she's worried about tomorrow. She can't sleep. And its her first day at her new job. Yikes. She should be sleeping but she wasnt. Oh well, i can understand anxiety. And i can understand that i am probably a good trusted friend. One who replies SMS 2 hrs plus late cos my phone was somewhere else when the messaged arrive.
That aside. I am a greedy person. And true to the sense of that. I m not really content to standby and be the guy whom she trusts as a friend. I want to be 'that guy'... The right man for her. Not just the friend whom she consults for shopping spots in singapore or the guy she gave her 'first time' to... first time on a train and then a tour bus...
At the same time, i am thinking, this is dangerous... No... wait... She... is dangerous... In every sense of the word. Attitude, a harsh mistress she will be. But yet, tempting is her scent. Her every move... her eyes... her voice... and the way she reprimands me for not really washing my hands after eating. And of course, the way she gets a bit annoyed is just so cute. Not denying the fact that many guys probably will die to have her, i and not going to that extreme. But its just not doing any justice to say that i have no desire whatsoever for her. Have to admit. Did like her cuteness since primary school.
Till now, the cute petit look remains. The attitude has changed perhaps. Strong of will and heart she is. Iron resolve she has i guess, and she seems to hate people's assumptions about her. In a sense, that's good. She taught me that I really need to get to know her better in a sincere manner. Like a real Gentleman that is. Call me Mr. Gentleman will ya? =P
Right. Its getting late. Hopefully, I will catch "Madagascar" tomorrow, although i really want to catch "Ima, ai ni yukimasu" sometime too. No lyrics this time, although i would really want to post the lyrics for No Reason by Weiss sometime too. Oh well, leave it here. To end, with nothing.
"Dust to dust, Ashes to ashes"
Recent happenings in my life... well... to think about it, nothing really big or significant did happen. Except maybe for one thing. And maybe its only significant to me and no one else.
This is perhaps no longer a secret among my yumcha kakis... but yeah, a lady, J, whom i kinda feel slightly more interested in before, and whom Mr. B has a crush on, SMSed me on a boring, wednesday morning. At 1:52am no less. To tell me that she's worried about tomorrow. She can't sleep. And its her first day at her new job. Yikes. She should be sleeping but she wasnt. Oh well, i can understand anxiety. And i can understand that i am probably a good trusted friend. One who replies SMS 2 hrs plus late cos my phone was somewhere else when the messaged arrive.
That aside. I am a greedy person. And true to the sense of that. I m not really content to standby and be the guy whom she trusts as a friend. I want to be 'that guy'... The right man for her. Not just the friend whom she consults for shopping spots in singapore or the guy she gave her 'first time' to... first time on a train and then a tour bus...
At the same time, i am thinking, this is dangerous... No... wait... She... is dangerous... In every sense of the word. Attitude, a harsh mistress she will be. But yet, tempting is her scent. Her every move... her eyes... her voice... and the way she reprimands me for not really washing my hands after eating. And of course, the way she gets a bit annoyed is just so cute. Not denying the fact that many guys probably will die to have her, i and not going to that extreme. But its just not doing any justice to say that i have no desire whatsoever for her. Have to admit. Did like her cuteness since primary school.
Till now, the cute petit look remains. The attitude has changed perhaps. Strong of will and heart she is. Iron resolve she has i guess, and she seems to hate people's assumptions about her. In a sense, that's good. She taught me that I really need to get to know her better in a sincere manner. Like a real Gentleman that is. Call me Mr. Gentleman will ya? =P
Right. Its getting late. Hopefully, I will catch "Madagascar" tomorrow, although i really want to catch "Ima, ai ni yukimasu" sometime too. No lyrics this time, although i would really want to post the lyrics for No Reason by Weiss sometime too. Oh well, leave it here. To end, with nothing.
"Dust to dust, Ashes to ashes"
posted by Holy Order Sol at 02:23
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